Where the Buffalo Roam

now all we can do is pray

2006-02-16T22:14:00.000-09:00

Well I finally finished my portfolio crap for SAIC, and still I'm not happy with what I've got to submit. I have that feeling that I could have had a much more impressive portfolio if i had had more time; then again I have a feeling I'd never have been happy with what I was sending off. I just hate that feeling that just haveing "great potential" is not enough to get in; not that I know if I even have that. Oh well I guess all I can do now is wait. If nothing else I have a feeling that I'll have no trouble getting into AIS; or if I'm really desperate UAA. Whatever, I'll get in somewhere, and I know I'll be happy where ever that it, so meh. I'll just wait to see what happens...

2006-02-14T23:38:00.000-09:00

I was just brooding over annoying "holidays" again and decided that any holiday that didn't merit a day off wasn't worth my attention. On that note wouldn't it just be trouble if we got v-day off? Just a funny little though, that is all...

V-day

2006-02-14T19:21:00.001-09:00

I've never really been a big fan of corperate holidays. Seems like just another day that I was reminded of how un loved I was, or how much of a jackass I was for not getting somebody some crappy gift. Eh, it's not all bad, atleast I have a girlfried for the first time, on v-day. Though My car was dead so I coudn't take her out for lunch... for the first time I am a little annoyed that I had my college english class after school. I don't know why I feel like I should do something though, after all v-day is just another haloween, only pink and red themed (and with a higher likelyhood of getting laied, unless your alone). Meh, whatever, Emmy's gonna come over (with any luck) a little later, we were gonna watch Munich, but I think I'd rather pass out in her arms on my coutch. After all I did only get 3 hours of sleep, and have been living off of caffiene and sugar ever since i started moving again... damn I rember when staying awake for 24 hours was so easy. I must be slipping in my old age.
Oh yeah, and I finally found that damned watch that beeps once every hour and goes off every morning at 5. I had completely forgot it was still around, and only rembered its exsistance because I was awake when it went of this morning. I'm going to find much pleasure in destroying the fucker... in fact I'm gonna go do that right now...

meh.

2006-02-14T04:57:00.000-09:00

You ever had one of those moments when you take a look in the morrior and felt like you couldn't recognize the face looking back at you as actually being yours? Just a wierd vibe I got recently... though it is 5 so I could just be seeing things... I'm gonna get a couple of hours rest so I can live out the rest of V-day. Oh shit... I still need to figure out something romantic to do for Emmy... damn it... ack, no matter what I can't win... good night.

this is a test (I think)

2006-02-14T03:49:00.000-09:00

Meh, this is kinda a wierd first blog. Somewhat a test, and somewhat some shit that I feel like rambeling off about. Anywho, I don't know why I exactly decided to set up this blog, but I guess it's because I need a place to rambel and rant every once and a while about shit that's a bit too personal to put on Myspace...
Anyways onto the real stuff. I don't know why, but here I am at 3:50ish in the morning on a tuesday, setting up this shit, and unable to sleep. I might have something to do with me not being done with my english homework yet... not that I've really ben trying, but it could be something else. I dunno, there's been something really diffrent about my life over the past two months now (and no it not just that I have a girlfriend now, but it dose have to do with her). I hate to rave, but I feel like I must because I have no where else to. Right now I could honestly say that I have never quite been happier the I am with her... I don't know why, but everything just feels right with her; all the time too. Physically, mentally, I'm just happy. It's really wierd to say it, but as of now because of her I have no regrets, becuase who knows where I would be now if I had anything diffrent in my past.
Well that's enough ranting about my love. I do feel guilty for never seeming to spend time with anyone else... though, if I'm happy with her is that really all that wrong? Other then her the only person I seem to hangout with as of late is Zack. I don't know why, but I could honestly say that I think he's the best friend I have in the school right now. then again I have a tendacy to be a loner, and so who I'm really good friends with seems to change by the season. I rember when I was planning on staying at UAA with scott and wayne... well so much for that, though I wish I could be happy going to college there, I have this fear that if I don't leave soon, I may never escape. Plus, I'll still be able to keep in contact with people. Ah, another reason for getting this blog thingy up and decent... well I'm gonna go work on that and wit hany luck finish my english homework too...